Nine hours into the 32 hour haul, I awoke to a traffic jam outside of Lake Charles, Louisiana. That long winter bayou sun was casting shadows on the kudzu. I was groggy. Regardless, I’d been chewing on the past five days of conference.
We’d left the LRGV that morning, tracking north on Texas Highway 281. A classic birding route that blows out of the valley into ranch land. The raptors were like candy. White-tailed, Red-tailed, and Harris’s Hawk perched on every telephone pole and mesquite top. Crested Caracara posted sentinel on the shoulder and before the Border Patrol checkpoint. It was a great drive and as we started to depart the more contiguous forest, we found a classic south Texas barbeque joint, ate ribs and cobbler beneath the mesquite, sipping sweet tea and soaking up the warm breeze and sunlight one last time. I was wistful about leaving, but was okay with it. I know I’ll be back and I had something to look forward to back in Pennsylvania. I’d also taken away a new perspective and outlook from this conference. I need to be tied to something real. Rooted in the earth.
These last seven months of living in the Ivory Tower have been disillusioning. It’s easy to lose sight of the reality and the gripping power of life outside of academia. When you’re tangled in that web, you forget that birds still soar over the border, governments want to erect walls, and people are on the ground, fighting for what they believe in and know in their hearts is right.
The closing banquet at the PIF conference was appropriate. It was hard not to be moved by the performance of a middle-aged Mexican bird conservator named Pati. She stood up and gave a heartfelt, moving, and cautioning off-the-cuff speech that swayed from natural appreciation and gratefulness to world-weary warning of what lies ahead. She made me appreciate mortality for once, when she said something along the lines of, “I am made from mother earth and I cannot wait to return to her and become part of her again.” The dust to dust connection is something I’ve always appreciated. It gave me further feeling for the brevity of our lives and the need to do something important and real.
As much as I’m deep into the geovisualization literature and academic environment right now, this trip has been invaluable in giving me the ability to see through it and identify my need and the need of the world to act in real on-the-ground ways. Building visualization techniques for abductively exploring large spatiotemporal datasets seems important and may elucidate new information about birds movements and migration, but the real work is out there. It’s where the mosquitoes bite you, the Tropical Parula sings, and the morning sun rises over the bosque. It’s not in front of a computer, it’s not in a seminar, and it’s not in a on the pages of a referred journal article.
I couldn’t be more grateful to see the real work people are doing to conserve birds. But, it’s even harder to see how little money there is for people to do it. Our government can spend $1.3 million dollars on a Cruise Missle, $30 billion dollars on a border wall, or $5 trillon dollars on Iraq. But they can’t spend $400,000 dollars on a regional conservation project, $1 million dollars on a data network, or $5 million dollars on a land conservation plan. Birders can change this. Vote. Give money and be charitable. And help others appreciate the work we need to do.
Maybe my father was right. Maybe this was just some great experiment. Maybe I needed it to prove to myself that I am ready to really tackle bird conservation. To prove that I don’t need more time and experience exploring myself and my interests. I’ll always want to map birds. But, I’ll always want to be out there doing the real work. And for realizing and appreciating that, I’m infinitely grateful to those who have made this possible and helped me see the light. Oh, I’m not giving up on my passionate approach to blending geography and birds. I’ll still be giving it my all, but I really needed that reminded of what lies beyond the office window. And to know that it’s still there, waiting for me.
The sun casts longer shadows over the western Louisiana rice farms. Great Egrets dappled the dikes and Ibis are found in clustered pockets on the corners of the shrimp ponds. We’ve got a gas stop up ahead. I’ll sleep some more and we’ll drive even further. Most of all I’ll feel satisfied with my new attitude about my life’s journey.